this is what i ate yesterday:

2 small peaches: 70 calories

turkey meat: 70 calories

steamed carrots with mushrooms and bean sprouts: 70 calories

gum: 25 calories

rice and beans: 200 calories

peanut butter on 1/2 piece of bread: 110 calories

total: 545 calories

ive gained five lbs this summer. i am determined to get down to 120 lbs by the time i get  back to school august 28th. do you think i can do it? im 135 now.

yesterday i ate

small peach

salad

2 slices of turkey

and then like a dumb ass i binged on:

chips

cereal

hashbrowns

i ate too much

prolly 1500 cals

i need to be thin

something that will prolly help me out is writing down every morsel that passes through my lips.

some bitchin' thinspo

i am a failure (as usual).

i need to dedicate more time to this blog. i have been inspired by so many of the bloggers who have been able to lose weight. i need to regain control. 

tea and water tomorrow. i will let you know how it goes. if i can do this, i know that i can do anything.

just a thought. i am home all fucking summer from uni....this would be the perfect time to fast. duh. but there are so many triggers at home. my family being one of them. and the summer makes me lazy. i just need to cut it the fuck out and fucking lose weight. and what the fuck, there isnt a proper scale here...i had to leave mine at school. wouldn't it be so good if i stepped on that scale when i get back to school and it says 122, 119, 115?  i have this pair of shorts that are two or three sizes too small...i want to be able to fit those. 

i am fat again (surprise) back at 132...my lowest weight this school year was 123. i want to really be thin. i am going on a liquid fast (tea,juice,water) and then ultimately on a water fast. after that i will be raw food/broth then soup.